1 Week Pregnancy

The best week of life so far ended this morning 1/24/2012. I was pregnant for a week...well "technically speaking" pregnant for 5 weeks but I only knew for a week. Oh, the plans I made in my head....how I was going to tell people the great news, arrange the baby's room, find day care for when I had to go back to work and most importantly when to make it "Facebook Official". It was a busy but short  week in my head as I am now no longer pregnant. To short to in my opinion to consider it a miscarriage but the longest pregnancy I have had yet. I don't know how many more times I can be on this roller coaster of infertility...is it time to get off and go forward with adoption? When is enough..enough? God only gives us what we can handle but today I feel like I have had more than my fill. My husband reminded me that he to is grieving this brief loss of a dream..and that I am not alone.